Friday, October 26, 2012

Doing A Lot Of Nevers

Tonight I am up past midnight, 12:07 at the moment to be exact. I never stay of this late, well since I moved back to Rexburg I never stay up this late. I also am blogging which I never do as well. Don't ask me why I am actually blogging, but I am staying up this late, because I can sleep in tomorrow! Well life in Rexburg has been a huge adventure. It's been filled with lots of things to keep me busy busy. It even snowed this week, so that add a bit of excitement to everyone lives in Rexburg. I have been filling my days with school, work, school work, and someone special. It's certainly a contrast from how things were during the summer. It's taking some time to get use to and to adjust to everything. I'll admit I am not much of a fan of actually having to live a real life and not just play all the time. Yet I am trying to find joy in the journey and recognize the things that matter most.

I sure do love this video and the message is shares. I am trying to recognize the things that matter most in life. I get so caught up sometimes in all the stress I have to deal with I forget what is truly important. It's when I get so stressed I get so frustrated and down on myself. I guess today is as good as any to figure out what truly matters most in life. I guess I'll go do that.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Who Would Of Thought

Well my time in Provo is about to come to an end. I sure am going to miss it and miss everyone I've met. I've learned lots and been blessed beyond my comprehension. One of the greatest blessing I have been given is a rekindled faith in God and his plan for me.

I shared part of my story with a friend of mine the other day. I then shared my testimony about what I've learned. They said why don't you share your testimony more often about this, and I bashfully said I just don't feel comfortable sharing it with others. Yet I am going to be brave and share my testimony.

I know that God loves each and everyone person on this earth. I know that he is aware of all of our needs and desires. I also know that he can see all things and truly knows what is best for us. We have been blessed with the wonderful gift of agency, and through this gift we can choose to turn to God. By turning our will to God he can make all things happen and truly knows what is best for us. If we put our faith in the Atonement we can truly be cleansed from any sin we or others have committed towards us. We are not alone and God is searching every day to bless everyone's lives. We just need to open the door and invite him in. It's crazy that just a few months ago I was at a point where I was completely lost and no idea where my life was going to go. I still have very little understanding about what will happen, but I wouldn't say I am lost. I am not lost because I know God understands, I am putting my complete trust in him that someday it will all work out. I mean who would have ever thought that Provo would work out for me, but it sure has! Provo sure has rekindled in me something new and invigorating! I am ready to take on a new adventure. Here I come Rexburg, sure excited to be coming back!

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Finding My Way

So a little while ago I wrote a post about how I felt lost and I was really hoping that Provo would help me find my way. Well can I say it has been the key to the lock! Ok I know cheesy!

I have been very blessed with my experience here. When I first decided to come to Provo I had no desire to be here. I was here, because I couldn't stand being in Rexburg. I needed to get out and give myself some "me" time. Well I decided to venture far and made my way to Provo. My plans consisted of not socializing, sewing, reading, cooking lots of food, and finding a job. Well when I got here that is what I tried to do, I was still super down. I guess I wasn't suppose to be doing any of that!

So I quit my job after working only once, became extremely social (which if you know me this is weird), stopped worrying, and decided to have fun. I have been blessed beyond measures and know that Provo has certainly helped me find my way for the time being. Another huge blessing I've been blessed with is the opportunity to serve. I came here for me, but in the process I learned that my "me" time was a lot better when I let people in my life. By allowing myself to open up to others and let them in and serving them, it has been much more rewarding to healing then just trying to do it all by myself.

For example I have an incredible roommate. She always needs help running errands, so I've been doing that with her a lot. At first I was like I don't want to waste my time, gas, and money. But then I knew that I couldn't say no. Yet I have been rewarded ten time over.  I don't even care about the resources I've used, because as a person I am growing and learning lots. This roommate has so many trials and could be so bitter, yet she always keeps smiling and living life to the fullest. She is able to laugh about her situation. For example she has a lot of medication, and every night she always likes to tell me that if I ever feel left out I am more then welcome to take her medication. I can experience how fun it is and enjoy the experience with her. She makes me laugh really hard. She also is also very short, and so if I ask her something she doesn't want to tell me she says if you were under 4 ft I'd tell you, but since you aren't I guess you'll never get to know.

There are so many others stories I could take up a whole day writing them down, yet I won't. I guess what I've really learned is God truly does care and even if we don't understand he does. He knows what is best for us, even if we don't see it. So often we get caught up with time, and we want what we want when we want it. Yet time for us and for God is different. We need to trust that in God's due time everything will work out. My new motto is At Some Point In Time! For now I am going to enjoy and have fun. I am working on not stressing over things that I don't have control over. I've always had a lot of anxiety problems, and I still do, but I am definitely getting better. Provo is certainly helping lots, thanks bunches for all the adventures!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Jan Terri

This summer I have become a fan of Jan Terri. You probably aren't alone if you haven't heard of Jan Terri, but you sure are missing out. My friend Mark introduced me to this "incredible" singer, so I shall spread the love. This is one of my favorite songs of hers Get Down Goblin. It's kind of catchy, and may be stuck in your head for awhile. Anything from her is pretty classic though, and you won't be missing out. Also this is an interview that the daily show did of her!

Well so a group of us decided to have a Jan Terri party last night. Kristen and I made sure to go all out, and can I say I have some classic 80's hair. Kristen was certainly my favorite. Jan Terri decided at one point to change her look and go Britney Spears on us. So Kristen dressed up as Britney Spears Jan Terri, can you see the resemblance!

We ate Jan Terri's favorite food, pasta, we listened to Jan Terri, took pictures with Jan Terri, and had a hilarious evening! Here are a few pictures from the evening.

Shout out to Mark for the introduction of Jan Terri to all of us, we don't know what we would do without you!

Monday, June 25, 2012


So today I got a bit of an adventure.

The above boy, took the above girl gun shooting! It was awesome, and apparently I am a high 6 on a range from 1-10 on how well I did at shooting.

But look what I was able to do, not once but at least a few times!

I thought I was legit until he blew up a water bottle on the first shot with his pistol, then I realized I should actually be categorized as a 2 on the scale of 1-10. 

It still turned out to be epic, and was an awesome way to spend the afternoon. Even if I always felt sweat dribbling down my back every time I'd try and shoot. Also don't ask how close I had to stand to actually hit the pop can, totally irrelevant. Thanks Ben!

Saturday, June 23, 2012


One thing that I really have enjoyed doing this summer is going on picnics. Usually I just pack up a camelback with a blanket, book, journal, sandwich, granola bar, fruit, and a water bottle. I head out to the park and enjoy the afternoon relaxing and eating! Today I wanted to picnic, but I decided to have friends join me. So glad I did, it turned out to be such a treat for the day. 
My friends Mark and Carissa joined me. I even went all out with the food this time. We had peanut butter and honey sandwiches, granola bars (dipped chocolate chip ones, my favorite), fruit snacks, carrots, strawberries, lemonade, and cookies. Luckily I remembered to bring fruits and veggies, because my friend Mark is very selective about the treats that he eats. He has the most creative way of eating healthy I've ever heard of. For Marks rules click HERE! If you are to lazy to click, basically he can only eat treats that are in season, which means that they have to be holiday appropriate. So since it's 4th of July season he can only eat things that are red, white, and blue and specific to 4th of July. So for our picnic he wasn't able to eat the fruit snacks, granola bars, lemonade, or the cookies. But I had taken plenty of carrots and strawberries luckily!
It turned out to be so much fun, we just spent the time talking and laughing. We got covered in this orange and black bugs, with awesome red eyes. Sure glad to have such good friends to go picnic with! 

Oh also this last picture is my friends mimicking a hilarious youtube video we found. I'll post the link so you can all enjoy! Awesome Face Workout!

Thursday, June 21, 2012

New Adventures

Every day here in Provo is a new adventure. I don't know if I'll be making a new friend, going hiking, babysitting, eating really good food, visiting old friends, and many other things. Over the last week I've had many more adventures to add to my stash. Last Thursday my ward went on a camping/boating trip. It was epic, and I bonded deep with many new people in the ward. The best part about all of this, was I got to wakeboard! I would have preferred skiing, but wake boarding comes close behind as one of the most awesome things to do. I think I even surprised a few people with the fact that I actually new how to get up, I guess I don't come across as that type! ;) The last night I even stayed up boating till 9 pm, and glad I did, because the water had been way to choppy earlier in the day to wakeboard.
Now I also got to go fishing for the first time in a long time. I am not good at fishing though, and sadly didn't catch anything. I had two boys the whole night trying to help me catch a fish (seriously we tried everything), so I could gut it. But oh well, I guess I'll just have to go another time.
I also went on a splurge and bought lots of produce for the week. I got apples, bananas, pineapple, apples, lettuce, avocados, and strawberries. I made crepes one night, but barely made a dent. I just love that I have so much produce now, I've just got to make sure I use it before it all goes to waste.
Sorry about the lack of pictures, next time I'll try and get pictures of my exciting new adventures.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012


So while here in Provo I've made some good friends. I don't typically click with girls either, but I've been pretty lucky while I've been here. There are four of us girls that are basically inseparable. Every night (super late) you can find us in my apartment talking about the events of the day and life in general.

First off there is Kristen, my cousin. She has been my best friend for sometime, and I sure am grateful for her. She makes me laugh every day, and makes me go on hikes at 4 in the morning. She is very opened minded and willing to try anything, plus she is so happy!

Then there is Suzy. She was roommates with Kristen last semester, so they were good friends. We just hit it off, ok not really, but I am glad she was patient with me while I was trying to get out of my pity myself zone. I am going to miss her though, because she is going on her mission in September.  I know she is going to be an awesome missionary though, and the people of Brazil are so lucky they get to her for a year and a half!

Last, but not least Carissa. She was just super social in the ward, and so we became friends, because we wanted to make more friends. She is super funny, and makes me go meet new people all the time. Also she can make a mean eggplant lasagna, and some great banana chocolate truffles!

I am grateful for these girls, they have been a huge blessing in my life. We are each so different, but one thing in common we love being together, and doing crazy things together!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Just A Little Hike

Yesterday was Wednesday, which for Kristen and I mean hiking day! Basically every Wednesday since I got to Provo Kristen and I have gone hiking. I am so glad that she is willing to go with me, because they are quickly becoming some of my favorite memories here in Provo. Yet we determined we are like an old married couple. We sure do love each other and are each others best friends. Yet sometimes we get on each others nerves and we just have to stop talking. Yet a few minutes later we are fine and can start talking about really random stuff and taking lots of pictures. I am also grateful for Kristen because she may not realized it, because I am an overly anxious person. When I go on a hike I don't know I always want to turn back early, because I don't know the terrain and am worried we are not going to end up anywhere. Well the hike in particular we went on yesterday I felt this way after about a mile, I know I am wimp. It's not even physical exhaustion, but all mental. Anyways it was a trail for horses and I just thought it said in this valley for miles on end, plus there were points where is was really steep. I of course expressed my opinion, but Kristen would just say lets go a little farther and see what is ahead. Every time we continue on it just got more beautiful. Yet I'd think well this is it, lets turn around. Then Kristen would say lets just keep going a little farther. Well luckily she was steady and reliable, because we made it to the top and could see out over the whole Utah Valley. It was super cool, and humbling to recognize what I would have missed by just turning around a half a mile before the end. I realized I am like that a lot in my life. I am willing to take a step, but after five steps I back down. I get anxious over all of the ''maybes'', and forget about the whole picture and what is at the very end. It was a good little life lesson, and plus I am hoping to have some ripped legs (especially since I can barely walk today, and I have another hike planned)!

Thanks Kristen, sure appreciate ya, even if you bug me sometimes!

Friday, June 1, 2012

Miss You Packers!

This week my sister Jenn and I got to go to Logan to visit Sadie and Daniel. It was such a fun little trip, but also sad. Sadie and Daniel are moving to Erie, Pennsylvania in about a week. Pennsylvania is sure a far ways away, and I am going to miss them lots. But it was good to hang a bit before they head out. It was super fun, because I got to be the cool aunt. Usually when our family gets together my niece and nephews love everyone more then they love me. But I was the cool one this time, and they all wanted to hang out with me! We got to go swimming, eat ice cream, eat lots of good food (especially cookies n' cream pop tarts, thanks Sadie bunches), watch a movie, go on a walk, and try and figure out what to do with Thomas's bee sting. Plus I got pictures!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Feeling of Accomplishment

For Memorial Day I went hiking, which isn't very surprising since that is what I've done quite a bit here in Provo. Yet this wasn't just any old hike, it was Provo Peak. If you haven't heard of it, it's ok, because most people haven't. When I told people I hiked Provo Peak they looked at me like, are you sure that was the name, because I've never heard of that before. But truly I hiked Provo Peak. To get up to it, we drove on a muddy, steep, and windey  road. If you'd like to successfully make it to the mountain, four-wheel drive is needed. Once you get there, there is no trail. So we just started to head upwards, and it headed upwards very rapidly. As we continued to head upwards we were also met with something that made it even funner, this would be called snow. I was doing pretty well until half way up I looked out over the valley and realized how steep the mountain was and how high I was. I realized how small I was in comparison to this mountain, and one missed step could potentially cause a lot of pain. It was also scary, because the snow hid all the loose rocks. I would try to get a secure grip with my shoes and also grab onto the snow with my frozen hands. It wasn't really a hike that exhausted me physically as much as it did mentally. After awhile, I felt like it was never going to end, so I told the people I was hiking with that I was done. One of the guys said that I couldn't stop yet, I had 95% of the hike done and only 40% of the view. I bucked up and just put one foot in front of the other, and I sure am glad that I did, here is why.

I felt very accomplished, and I realized I can do anything I put my mind to. And with a lot of harder work and determination, I can end up with a reward that it way beyond my comprehension. I felt a little bit of heaven up on the top of this mountain, and I will never forget this moment. I don't think my legs will either, or my sunburnt head/neck!

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Epic Death

So my ward has been playing assassin, with marshmallows. Basically rules of the game you have a target and try to kill them by throwing a marshmallow. If killed you must give the person who you killed your victim, it leads to one person winning. Well this week I learned who was trying to kill me, so I was very good at avoiding seeing them. Yet I was very good at taunting them (of course without really seeing them) and pleading them that they spare my life! I informed this person that if I must die, it must be epic and I needed a good story. Well as the week goes on my best friend, cousin, and roommate (I am just trying to emphasize how close we are) named Kristen decided to betray me. She started collaborating with my killer, yeah I know I should have been furious! Well last night I was left alone in my apartment while everyone went to go plot my death. I decided I might as well enjoy myself and sat on my bed to watch Rocky (classy I know). Awhile later Kristen walks into our room and announces we should make tacos. I grudgingly leave Rocky to go make tacos, but in the process Kristen tells me all of her ingredients are in our neighbors fridge. I inform her I have everything, she stumbles over some explanation why we have to use her stuff, and then leaves. She comes back and then indiscreetly looks out the door. At this point I obviously run back to my room (there is a rules you can't kill past the chastity line). While I am running back I look over my shoulder and see none other then Chewbacca coming into my apartment with two sticks/light sabers with marshmallows on the end. Well after Kristen pulls me out to the living room and I light saber fight with Chewbacca, I end up dead. Yet I am not to disappointed, because I got my wish it was an epic death! Plus I get to plot and help Chewbacca to kill his next victim, I am pretty stoked about it!